I Must Tell Jesus!
I must tell Jesus all of my trials;
I cannot bear these burdens alone;
In my distress He kindly will help me;
He ever loves and cares for His own.

I must tell Jesus! I must tell Jesus!
I cannot bear my burdens alone;
I must tell Jesus! I must tell Jesus!
Jesus can help me, Jesus alone.

I must tell Jesus all of my troubles;
He is a kind, compassionate friend.
If I but ask Him, He will deliver;
Make of my troubles quickly an end.

I must tell Jesus! I must tell Jesus!
I cannot bear my burdens alone;
I must tell Jesus! I must tell Jesus!
Jesus can help me, Jesus alone.

Tempted and tried, I need a great Savior;
One who can help my burdens to bear.
I must tell Jesus! I must tell Jesus!
He all my cares and sorrows will share.

I must tell Jesus! I must tell Jesus!
I cannot bear my burdens alone;
I must tell Jesus! I must tell Jesus!
Jesus can help me, Jesus alone.

Oh how the world to evil allures me;
Oh how my heart is tempted to sin;
I must tell Jesus, and He will help me;
Over the world the victory to win.

I've been attending the Southern Baptist church Vic & Allie go to since I moved up here in June, and I think I finally have the routine down.  They sing a praise song or 2 while everyone's getting seated. The leader welcomes everyone, and then encourages the congregation to greet each other during the next song.  Then there are 1 or 2 more songs.  The pastor opens the service, gives the announcements, and then we sing a hymn.  I love hymns.  Yesterday, we sang (bet you can't guess!?!) I Must Tell Jesus.  Shocker ain't it? Didn't see that coming.  Anyway...all this to say, the song knocked my socks off.  Not because I never heard it before, but because I never really got the message before.  I MUST TELL JESUS!  I mean, whenever something happens in my life I think I have to tell....Mom, Lisa, Kris, Kimmy... or maybe somebody else who would be able to relate to that 'thing' that happened.  But never, NEVER, do I think I gotta tell Jesus! I usually get around to Him.  Especially if it's bad, He's at least 2nd or 3rd on my list cause I need His help.
Duh! Who cares more about every little idiosyncrasy, every little joy, and every little heartbreak than the Creator of me? Who wants me to unload on them every little detail of my day more than my Best Friend?  Who can answer the questions my heart holds about my life better than the One who is setting it up? I can't imagine being Jesus (well, Duh) and watching me go through my day, see me enjoy the little blessings, and even struggle w/ the little pains, and pick up my phone and call someone to tell them about it.  I'm forever longing to be closer and closer to Him...how much easier can it be than to just TALK to Him? Not just praying, talking. Talking to my Father. My Best Friend. My Redeemer...Savior...and all of the hundred other names for JESUS!

Yea......and this was all before the sermon! :)

Have a blessed week and don't forget to TELL IT TO JESUS :)

"hang all the mistletoe...i'm gonna get to know you better...this christmas" could be that its the song that plays everytime i get a text but i'm absolutely in love w/ chris brown's "this christmas" mmmm.... can't get it out of my head.
i know it's so cliche to say "i can't believe its christmas already" and "so much has happened this year" but...i can't believe it's christmas already! and so much really has happened this year!!! no joke. lets recap.
started @ quality. discovered a sick freak in the target shoe department. flooded for the 3rd and final time. quit essenhaus. i turned 25 (jury's still out on that one as i rapidly approach 26) 1st NewParis experience. i lost my job. vernelle got married & i moved upstairs! i get offered and accepted the nanny position.2nd NewParis...rained out. packing, packing and more packing. goodbye parties (it's my party and i'll cry if i want to, cry if i want to) 3rd NewParis experience w/ lots of bugs. MIS! smashed my thumb. met Zane, and fell in love with a 2footer & arabic food! :D got to see Heidi on a secret overnight run to goshen! met up with kimmy @ her sisters n taught lexi to say "kimmy's got a boyfriend" & "jHo"... Kimmy & jHo FINALLY started dating :D youth campout, the fair, and Suz & Brendon got engaged! mo, jHo, nate, & mel came up to visit! spent a week in goshen: wedding planning, catching up w/ friends, freedom rally @ miami. kris n mel came to visit n we got lost in the ghetto. went to ohio for a fall party. met sharon in goshen for dress fitting & bachelorette planning and hanging out with Suz & Megan and even squeezing a little griner time in there. came back a week later for 10 days for SUZ & BRENDON's wedding!!!! thanksgiving in ohio. kimmy FINALLY came up to detroit...and had ARABIC food :D adrian came to visit for a couple days. the car next to me in traffic started on fire. i walked into my first bulletproff subway (yes, the sandwhich shop) and now here we are. ok there were a couple other visits to goshen and to ohio and so much Zane stuff in there i can't begin to list...
and there's probably something major i'm forgetting but... basically: where i thought i was headed this time last year is nowhere near where i'm sitting right now. and as you'll read in several of my previous posts: all a testament to God's timing. which reminds me, church last sunday, the message was all about timing. God's PERFECT timing. His timing isn't our timing...and that forces us to TRUST Him..and we can trust that He is ALWAYS on time. it was a great message.
so folks. whether you're ready for it or not...Christmas is here. and 2009 is right on its heels...so here's to you. i'm not just wishing you happy holidays. i'm wishing you moments... like the popular quote "life isn't measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away" (or something like that)
...so... to moments... all part of God's perfect timing :D


"my world is filled with cheer and you this christmas..."

what's that spell?
so i couldn't sleep last night.
there's a lot going on in 'my' life and it all came screaming at me...
by 'my' life i mean...the people in my life. family. friends.
my heart is heavy. and last night it couldn't take it anymore.
i sat there thinking about it.
tossing...turning and suddenly i realized...
i was doing the complete opposite of counting my blessings.
i was counting all the things that are wrong my world.
i'm so ashamed.
that's where that word comes in. conviction. it hit me hard.
i needed a shoulder...or at least a tissue.
i still couldn't sleep...
so i opened the book that's been much too neglected lately. my Bible.
there i found peace. comfort. promise.
and again: conviction. and hard. can't breathe.
i can't fix these problems.
i can't pretend these problems aren't getting to me.
and i can't do it anymore without my Jesus.
i didn't mean to shut Him out.
i can't explain it.
i don't know why.
but i can't do it anymore. i'm coming back.
Jesus hold me. i need a hug. i need You.